Uneasiness in Treatment
July 3, 2017
Monday in treatment
Waiting for shit to hit fan
Fearful for the worst
Don't like the chaos
Post weekend stress can be bad
Makes me feel nervous
Use meditation?
Deep breathing is not my thing
Need alternative
Quiet inner voice
Challenges the thought process
Focus on present
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Don't know what to think
Feedback received thus far mixed
Could go either way
Not so black and white
At least no cert will be placed
What should I expect
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Sessions feel awkward
Therapy is not fun
Should it be this bad
Uncomfortable
Not sure I trust therapist
Feel sad about this
She's not new to me
Not like Doc Brown, Emily
Should be a comfort
I'm afraid of her
Very intimidated
At least in person
Unable to voice
How I am really feeling
In moment with her
At best, not helpful
Therapeutic? I don't know
She's good at her job
Pushes me to talk
Speak when I'd rather avoid
The confrontation