The Accident
June 25, 2017
Soon to be a year
Since the near fatal car crash
That nearly killed me
Tomorrow I will
Reflect and appreciate
Honor my blessings
I came close to death
Drained of blood, my lungs collapsed
Comatose, lifeless
Struggled to emerge
From the depths of a black hole
Trapped in the darkness
Opened up my eyes
Was hooked up to a breathing tube
Unable to talk
Terrified, confused
I could not communicate
The nurses were mean
What happened to me?
At first could not remember
What was this nightmare?
I woke up in hell
Horrible, agonizing
Unbearable pain
Nearly immobile
Like when Humpty Dumpty fell
Body was shattered
Broken ribs, pelvis
Major surgeries to stitch
Sewn up like a rag doll
Looked like Frankenstein
Though the wounds have mostly healed
I'm forever scarred
Seventeen units
Blood required to replenish
Survival questioned
I tried to reach out
Attempted to sign letters
The nurses played dumb
Requested paper
And pen to write our my needs
Helped a little bit
But I was so weak
Staff could barely decipher
The words I'd written
Once the tube came out
I was unable to talk
Could not project voice
Mute; so frustrating
It took so much energy
Just to make a sound
Was in a coma
For more than a week
Before waking up
Needed two people
To help me sit up in bed
Forget the bathroom
Try imagining
Reverting to a baby
Dependent, helpless
First fed through a tube
Progressed to eat on my own
It took forever
Had to be sponge bathed
On display for all to see
Many accidents
So embarrassing
PT tried to get me up
Fell flat on my face
Rehab was the plan
But my insurance fell through
Went home with my mom
Things were bad enough
Before I went to her house
Unprepared to deal
She is not a nurse
So how could she care for me?
In my fragile state
Collapsed several times
A wonder I did not break
More bones or concuss
They always told me
I am very hard headed
Thick skull to be sure
Had to wear diapers
Use walker to move about
Standing up risky
Basket case she was
Afraid that I would fall down
Could not get me up
My sister helped out
Where would I be without her?
Keeper of the peace