Sad Anniversary
June 20, 2017
Afternoon
Once upon a time
June twentieth nineteen ninety-eight
Magical wedding
I was the princess
Decked out in lace and flowers
A true fairy tale
Cinderella- me
No one could believe their eyes
A beautiful bride
Quiet, introvert
Had met her match at Disney
What a sight to see
In a cathedral
Sewanee, Tennessee- his choice
His homeland, not mine
But what did I care
Magical; out of this world
Day to remember
Was I such a fool
To believe in fantasy
Wishful thinking, dreams
It was amazing
Walking down the center aisle
Beautiful Sally
Evening
Looking back in time
It is hard to believe that
So much time has passed
What happened to cause
The breakdown of our marriage
Is love so fickle?
Did he ever care?
Did vows mean nothing to him?
Did he ever love?
He shattered my heart
Vanquished me from memory
Shut out forever
Why can't he forgive
I love(d?) him with my whole heart
Now I am nothing
To him, I am gone
Out of sight, out of mind, done
His cruelty bites
I want to let go
Of the pain, grief, and heartache
Wash away my tears
There has to be more
Than this regret and remorse
No need to suffer
If he can move on
Why can't I find happiness?
As he likely has
But if I stay sick
There's no chance I will find love
Bones are not pretty
Who wants a sick girl
Walking time bomb, might drop dead
Who would wish for that?
Once upon a time
June twentieth nineteen ninety-eight
Magical wedding
I was the princess
Decked out in lace and flowers
A true fairy tale
Cinderella- me
No one could believe their eyes
A beautiful bride
Quiet, introvert
Had met her match at Disney
What a sight to see
In a cathedral
Sewanee, Tennessee- his choice
His homeland, not mine
But what did I care
Magical; out of this world
Day to remember
Was I such a fool
To believe in fantasy
Wishful thinking, dreams
It was amazing
Walking down the center aisle
Beautiful Sally
Evening
Looking back in time
It is hard to believe that
So much time has passed
What happened to cause
The breakdown of our marriage
Is love so fickle?
Did he ever care?
Did vows mean nothing to him?
Did he ever love?
He shattered my heart
Vanquished me from memory
Shut out forever
Why can't he forgive
I love(d?) him with my whole heart
Now I am nothing
To him, I am gone
Out of sight, out of mind, done
His cruelty bites
I want to let go
Of the pain, grief, and heartache
Wash away my tears
There has to be more
Than this regret and remorse
No need to suffer
If he can move on
Why can't I find happiness?
As he likely has
But if I stay sick
There's no chance I will find love
Bones are not pretty
Who wants a sick girl
Walking time bomb, might drop dead
Who would wish for that?