Rough Night and Evil Scale
August 3, 2017
This day has been the worst
Day I've had since coming home
Drowning in dark thoughts
Stayed up far too late
My intentions dismantled
Troubled dreams filled mind
Woke feeling ambushed
Out of sorts, in low spirits
Did not want to move
Reluctant to start
Morning in negative way
Felt drained, depleted
When I finally
Found motivation to rise
The scale called my name
Beckoning to me
I felt drawn toward its cunning
Voice of deception
What number would show
Up, down, unchanged, no matter
Results would anger
No good ever comes
From seeking consolation
In digital hope
Answer I wanted
Failed to materialize
Same as Saturday
What did I expect
Why do I want my weight to
Decrease, slip away
Making matters worse
I allowed guilt and disgust
To dictate my day
Though time has now passed
I still feel lousy inside
Did not want to eat
Cycle continues
Negativity is strong
Need to break away
Turn this day around
Previous attempts did not
Help me feel better
Must try something new
Break free from this old pattern
Find hope in myself