Heightened Anxiety
August 4, 2017
Energy level
Seems down compared to before
Why am I so tired?
Still staying up late
Hard to concentrate on what
I need to complete
Push myself too hard
In constant motion when I
Am up and about
Going and going
Without feeling like I have
Finished anything
Frantic and anxious
Although my mood is mostly
Upbeat, positive
With some exceptions
Like yesterday, and no one
Is always happy
But why the decline?
Am I not sleeping enough?
Food intake okay
According to scale
Have not lost ground- one good thing
In most people's eyes
Should be adjusted
I have been home for a while
Big change is coming
Start new job Monday
Demands are real- must do well
I have to succeed
Cannot afford to
Lose this opportunity
Don't need more failures
How can I prevent
Relapse, another screw up
I'm so terrified
It's in my control
To be successful; yet I fear
Might self-sabotage
In the past, this has
Been my history, pattern
Fell down rabbit hole
Before I even
Had a chance to prove myself
Dug my grave too deep
How to avoid this
Tendency of mine- must learn
To believe in me
I have skills, talents
Intelligent, creative
Respected teacher