Embattled Decisions
July 7, 2017
I have had enough
Beyond tired of being here
I need the treatment
But sick of the games
Lies and broken promises
Cliques and fake people
Angry, hurt, pissed off
Sad, disappointed, let down
Weary, frustrated
Is this the answer?
Will leaving solve anything?
Should I endure more
Am I just running
Due to fear or something else
Are there benefits?
Must think carefully
Examine all the angles
Consider options
Need to remember
Why I fought so hard to come
Was not trivial
Tough choices to make
May kick myself either way
What will I decide
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Opted to stay here
Despite what the ED thoughts said
I should exit now
Unhappy camper
Wanted to go home Monday
Long weekend ahead
Especially since
I decided not to go
Tomorrow may suck
Don't know if outing
Will be on my agenda
Weight determines this
Disappointment looms
Perhaps I will make the cut
Should I get hopes up
Not the end of world
Survived previous weekends
Stuck within these walls
Seeing others leave
To go on outing or pass
Only makes it worse
Much more challenging
Listening to the recaps
Envy is not good